Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I want your sex.....actually, I really don't

I think my ideals toward sex and sexuality have changed greatly over the past year or so. When Sean and I were together, our sexual exploits weren't anything that an editor at Penthouse would want to see and because of this, I think our subsequent attempts at a vigorous sex life was anything but stellar. Early on in our relationship, I made the statement that if you aren't getting what you need at home, you're going to get it somewhere else. That was my stance on cheating and it still is. If you are not participating in and being an active partner in your sex life at home, then you have no right to call the cards on the partner that goes outside the home. So with all that being said, I didn't find it all to shocking when my suspicions were realized and my happy marital bed wasn't so happy anymore.

Probably about 2006 is when we pretty much gave up the charade and stopped all together so 5 years ago is when I really stopped having sex. Does this upset me, somewhat...I guess. Is sex something I'm eagerly seeking out...no not so much because I am not comfortable in my own skin and until I can get there, I don't think I am going to be interested in it. I guess that makes me asexual. Funny, I gave a fiend so much shit over that label and now I am the one to adopt it as well.

Another thing that kind of bothers me is the proclivity of gay men to only want to talk about sex en masse. There are so many other things I would rather talk about but I guess I am the odd one out in that group now. I think another reason that I am not interested in sex at all is because of my weight and my testosterone levels. I am sure they are very low, if measurable at all. So here I am single and not interested in sex. I never thought I'd say that. After years of being as close to the "Whore of Babylon" as I was and now I am celibate. Interesting how things work.

So here I am, sexless and alone and I'm ok with it. I don't think there is going to be a huge shift in the geosynchronous orbit of the Earth or anything in the cosmos changing or realigning...it's just me and I'm still cool with that

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (Part 2)

So Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows (Part 2) comes out on Friday. This is going to be exceptionally bittersweet for me because of my long standing relationship in the fandom. The first movie came out 10 years ago. It's amazing how much of my life can be broken up by decades. Smallville, JAG, my relationship with Sean (plus a year). I've been with Harry as he has grown up and to see the pictures of Daniel, Emma and Rupert back in the first days blows my mind. I want to thank them and J.K Rowling for allowing me to spend time with them and I know that whenever I need to feel "home", I can always go to Hogsmead and get a pint of Butterbeer or go to Honeydukes and have a treat. I know there is potential for me to be a blubbering mess in the movie theater but it's the closing of another chapter of my life, one that Sean and I were looking forward to with great excitement. So I'll go to the movies this weekend, by hook or by crook and I'll get emotional and have an amazing time and be sad but know I have amazing memories.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Katy B. - Katy on a Mission

Dubstep has taken over my friends and I don't mind at all because I have been a fan for a long time and this song has started getting some minor exposure in the US, again...I've been a fan for a while. I'm not sure what it is about it, maybe it's the oOoOoOom part but there is something boozy and drunk about this song that just kind of washes over you and just makes you want to sway. If I didn't know better I would think I had been iDosed but I'm not too terribly familiar with the binaural beats to know for sure. All I know is this song will stick with you for a while and it fixes what ails you.

Closing of Doors

I've talked about this before in my life with friends and they look at me like I'm dumb so I'll throw it at you guys and see what you think.  I've spent a great deal of time in my life with various groups of people.  Here's where the curve ball gets thrown.  These ensembles I have dedicated so much of my life to are fictional.  Casts of televisions shows and I have to ask forgiveness and some latitude here before you start with the straight jackets and padded rooms.  When you have an hour long scripted program that airs once a week for 23 weeks, that's 23 hours you spend with these characters.  If the writing is worth a damn, you should develop some connection with the characters and if the writing is really good, when something bad happens to the characters, you should feel it as well.

This past television season, I said goodbye to more shows as they weren't renewed (United States of Tara) or they ran their run (Smallville).  On top of that, there have been shows that I have completed watching the full runs of and am either current with or have watched all the episodes that were created.  So I do tend to get wrapped in the lives of the characters on television.

Even though new doors get opened ever season, there's nothing like being able to sit down with people you've established relationships with and catch up on what's happening in their life this week.  I am a super fan of scripted television and I think that reality based programming is the downfall of our entertainment.  I have room in my life for some unscripted shows but they have to be very special.  So you'll have to forgive me for wanting to commit random acts of self mutilation over the next episode of Jersey Shore or Real Housewives.

So what say you, readers....is it an appropriate response to get drawn into scripted television and get sad and stuff when bad stuff happens or am I totally mental?

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

DC Universe Reboot

So I'm way behind on blogging about this but to my credit, I've talked about it a shit ton among my friends and I have to say that I am excited about it. Because I'm not actively collecting comics, the changes that are leading up to the reboot aren't necessarily disturbing my calm and that's not a bad thing. I went through the 52 new titles and decided which ones I want to try when the reboot happens and right on the top of my list is this big beautiful thing:
That's right, you're looking at the newly rebooted Justice League...drawn by Jim Lee and written by Geoff Johns...you read that correctly....Lee and Johns together on this track....  I am super excited about this and will probably try and blog about it when it starts regularly.

So after the jump is my list of titles and some information about each.


I'm in the process of combining all the blogs I had under my blogger account into 1 blog and the focus of that blog is going to be directed more in a "me-centric" fashion. It doesn't matter if it's music, movies, television, sports, comics, news or whatever. If it effects me or I have an effect on it, I'll probably post it. So sit back and enjoy as we all come together to Pop, Rinse and Repeat.